MEMORY

I still remember the sound of your voice calling out my name
And I still remember my face examining itself, knowing things would never be the same
I still remember your smiling face across a crowded room
And I still remember, through the weathering of time, that first embrace that sealed our doom

Your eyes stare at me, from every storefront
And your voice calls to me from every restaurant
And your laughter pierces me when I stand beneath the open sky
And your absence murders me as I sleep perchance to die

Seems like to escape is what I ought to do
But every road I take brings me back to you

I am frozen in the moment
Clinging to your memory
And I don't want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I'm scared my dying breath may be your name

It's just like I sang to you – everyone knows that we live in a world
Where people give bad names to beautiful things
And if it's really true that people should leave once they've
Got what they came for, I certainly hope that you're holding it close to you now

I am frozen in the moment
Clinging to your memory
And I don't want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I'm scared my dying breath may be your name

I still remember the sunlight on your face that warm November day
And I still remember, my heartbeat quickened by desire, unaware of prices I would pay
I still remember the closing door the night we said goodbye
And I still remember, losing you for good and knowing that a part of me had died

Seems like to escape is what I ought to do
But every road I take brings me back to you

I am frozen in the moment, please do not forget me!
Clinging to your memory, 'cause I will not forget you!
And I don't want the ignorance
That a spotless mind would bring
But I'm scared my dying breath may be your name

Please! Let me be frozen in the moment
Let me hold on to those memories

And I pray that things will be alright
And I pray you'll think of me tonight
And I know somehow I'll be alright
And I hope that you're the same
But I'm scared my dying breath may be...your name

THE ORIGINS OF RUIN

Hand on heart, head in hands
The light is fading now
It cannot pierce the darkness

Nothing left to build upon
Except the mounting fear
That none of this was worth it

Hand on pen, pen to page
Focus though I may
My words have failed me

Emptiness consuming me
The shadows of my broken hope
Play in the dying night

Tears in eyes, eyes wide open
Staring at the glass
The face I see knows everything
Words I've written, letters never sent

Only signposts marking out, the origins of ruin

MAN OF GLASS

Look at me – deep into weathered eyes that have
Seen too much of the world and far too many
Failings in myself

Look at me – deep into bones of glass
Shards of mirrors reflecting
All the dark events of my life

If something doesn't kill us, it just might make us stronger
But I don't think I can make myself
Hold on for too much longer

Look inside – deep in the heart of one who is close to losing faith
But praying that his faith will see him through
Look inside – deep in a mind reviewing unanswerable questions
About what lies ahead

If something doesn't kill us, it just might make us stronger
But I don't think I can make myself
Hold on for too much longer

Am I falling away from what really matters
And teetering on the brink of disaster
At a moment in time had we turned the other way
A different path would lead us to another fate

Am I falling away from what really matters
And teetering on the brink of disaster
At a moment in time had we turned the other way
A different path would lead us to another fate

Am I falling away from what really matters
And teetering on the brink of disaster
At a moment in time had we turned the other way
A different path would lead us to another fate

BLIND MY EYES

Can you see past this place
Where our failings took us unaware?
I have dreams of a future brighter than the past

Faith sustain me
Take away my fear
Hope reclaim me
Wipe these sins away
Love renew me
Give me strength to cross the gap between
Denial and the truth that burns so bright
It blinds my eyes

I have been to a darker place
That I had thought I'd ever go
Your voice calling out to me
And now I know
I can dream of a future brighter than the past

Faith sustain me
Take away my fear
Hope reclaim me
Wipe these sins away
Love renew me
Give me strength to cross the gap between
Denial and the truth that burns so bright
It blinds my eyes

Faith sustain me
Take away my fear
Hope reclaim me
Wipe these sins away
Love renew me
Give me strength to cross the gap between
Denial and the truth that burns so bright
It blinds my eyes

It blinds my eyes!
It blinds my eyes!
It blinds my eyes!

USED TO BE

I don't know how to finish what's begun
Or how long I might wonder if it's done
Windows open when the doors are all closed
But if you step through, you might forget the way back home

I was drawn, I was taken over Rubicons
All the while never realized I was gone
Windows opened when the doors were all closed
I stepped through them and now I forget the way back home

Someone introduce me to the man I used to be
I can feel him struggling deep inside of me
I swear if it takes until my dying day
That somehow I will find my way again

I have faltered, I have sacrificed, everything I once held dear

Windows opened when the doors were all closed
I stepped through them and lost my way
Somehow I know I'll be back again – I know I can save myself

Someone introduce me to the man I used to be
I can feel him struggling deep inside of me
I swear if it takes until my dying day
That somehow I will find my way

I will find I'm back again the man I used to be
I will find I'm reconciled with what I've hoped to be
I'll build a bridge to what I've lost
And I will find my way, back home again